sejak 2,3 arini air mata aku xprnah kering..rumet aku pn rsau...
hati aku xtenang..walau pn lps smayang..takut aku..aku sgt depress..ayah sakit tenat kat kampung.nk g jenguk, mmg la nk tp skrng bz ngan praktikal..kata orng bz cmne pn, ayah lbih pnting..tp, klo x gi praktikal xde markah lak..ape harus buat?orng ckap sng tp yg melaksanakan cmne...tension aku...lps stress lak, mslah lg ngan knon2 nye bf..ntah lah..tp skrng aku xtaw la..saat kite perlukan die, die bz ngan kwn2 die..katenye kwn lebih pnting...snggup berkorban demi kawan, aku yg de mslah perlukan orng nk dgr mslah ni x lak dgr..tiap kali borak, xdgr skit pn cte aku..tp nk suh dgr cte hdup n kwn die..ape aku nk buat..sabar je..paling aku stress bile pape pn x jujur ngan aku..knon2 mau jga ati..klo taw aku xske, xpyah la buat..tp buat jgk, mknenye x jga la kan..kjujuran tu xde, mane nk dpt kepercyaan..smlm yng pling dasyat, rsau jgk aku..aku stress gler..smpai nk pcah dada aku...aku tepon kat umah, mak nangis sedih agaknye pasal ayah, aku diam x mnitik kan air mata sekali pn ckap ngan mak..aku xnk buat mak sedih lg..cte sal keadaan ayah..sedih sungguh..aku dpt rse beban mak..mental n fizikal..kadangkala aku tertanya2 bilekah ini semua berakhir n apakah silap aku dlm idup ni sampai kami di uji sebegini rupe..mmg la org kata,Allah uji tndenye Dia syg kat kite tp klo kna kat hidup sndri, mcm mne la agaknye..ckp senang tp orng yg laluinya cmne..sabar pn sabar..tp kdng2 sbgai fitrah hdup mnusia kdng2 ksbaran tu hilang sekejap tnpe di sedari...pas tepon mak, aku xtaw nk luah kat sape..hati aku berdenyut2 sakit..sebak..nk pecah dada aku..
xdpt aku than, akhirnya air mata aku jtuh jua ke atas meja tulis ni disaksikan laptop ni..aku sms bf tp every time sms, mcm xnk lyan n dingin..study? ok aku percaya...tut2 g kuar mkn..cmne..aku mntk 5 mnit pn jd la nk dgr mslah aku, tp xde pn..sjak 5 bln ni aku hdup terkontang kanting..die mcm xkesah..aku terngiang2 lg time bln puase aritu die ckp die dh tawar ati ngan aku..klo btl ape yg die ckp, aku xtahu nk wat ape..mslah dtg skali gus cmni..depress melampau..aku tkut jd hilang akal..aku kini nk dkatkan dri ngan agama..aku ade bc tafsir, ssh nk fham aku pk pnye pk, aku tension..rsau aku..aku mnangis sorng2..aku tkut aku prob tu..stress sgt2..dada aku mcm nk pecah..skrng snyuman aku xsenang..dulu, pergi ward, senyum, jumpe sape2 senyum...skrng xde dah..msm n kusut je mka aku..kdng2 aku nk mkn pn xde nkmat..mkn sbb nk ec prt je..xde keseronokan pn..
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
father related info..
What Are Bowel Obstructions?
Intestinal Obstructions Are Treatable but Can Be Life-Threatening
By Amber J. Tresca, About.com Guide
Updated April 10, 2010
About.com Health's Disease and Condition content is reviewed by the Medical Review Board
See More About:
* intestinal blockage
* symptoms of bowel obstruction
* preventing bowel obstructions
* constipation
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What is a Bowel Obstruction?
A bowel obstruction is when a section of the bowel (either the small or the large intestine) becomes totally or partially blocked, so that stool cannot pass through it. Bowel obstructions can happen to just about anyone, but they are a common complication ofCrohn's disease.
Types of Obstruction
Mechanical obstruction: In this type of obstruction, the stool moving through the intestines is physically blocked, much like household plumbing may be blocked. A blockage could be caused by:
* Hernia
* Scar tissue (adhesions)
* Impacted stool
* Gallstones
* Tumor
* Abnormal tissue growth
* Intussusception (a section of the bowel slides in to itself, similar to when a telescope is closed)
* Twist or kink in the intestines (volvulus)
* Ingested foreign body (swallowing a nonfood item)
Treating a Bowel Obstruction
An obstruction is a serious condition and may be treated in the hospital. In some cases, it is necessary to decompress the intestine. This is accomplished by inserting a nasogastric (NG) tube in to the stomach, which alleviates distention and vomiting. If inserting the NG tube does not help in relieving the blockage, surgery may be necessary. Surgery may also be necessary if some of the tissue in the intestine has died.
Complications
If not treated, a bowel obstruction could lead to more serious problems, such as the death of the bowel tissue. If part of the bowel dies, it could result in infection and/or gangrene. The intestine can also perforate (get a hole in it), which is a medical emergency and will require surgery.
Symptoms
An obstruction can cause the complete absence of stool or gas (obstipation), because no stool can pass through the intestine. Or it can cause diarrhea, because only liquid stool can pass beyond the point of obstruction. Other symptoms are intense pain and cramping, abdominal fullness and abdominal bloating. The symptoms of a bowel obstruction are:
* A feeling of fullness in the abdomen
* Bad breath
* Bloating (distention)
* Constipation
* Diarrhea
* Pain and cramping
* Vomiting
Diagnosis
The diagnosis of a bowel obstruction is made through both a physical exam and diagnostic tests.
Bowel sounds. The bowel normally makes some sounds, such as gurgling and clicking, which can be heard at irregular intervals by using a stethoscope. If an obstruction is present, a health care provider may hear high-pitched sounds while listening to the abdomen. If the obstruction has been present for some time, there may be no bowel sounds at all.
X-Ray (abdominal radiograph). This is normally the first test that is used to determine if there is an obstruction. A radiologist or other specialist can determine if the x-ray shows the signs of a bowel obstruction.
Barium enema. This test used to be used to determine the location of the obstruction. This method, however, is not always good for showing whether an obstruction is caused by something pressing on the bowel.
Upper GI with small bowel series. Much like the barium enema, this test used to be used to help pinpoint the obstruction, especially if it was in the upper gastrointestinal tract. This is almost never used for diagnosis anymore.
Abdominal CT scan. This is the primary test used for bowel obstruction.
Preventing Obstructions
Some causes of obstructions are not preventable, such as those where there is no mechanical reason for the obstruction. In cases where the obstruction is caused by another condition, such as a tumor or a hernia, treating the underlying problem can help prevent the development of an obstruction.
Sources:
Ros PR, Huprich JE, Bree RL, Foley WD, Gay SB, Glick SN, Heiken JP, Levine MS, Rosen MP, Shuman WP, Greene FL, Expert Panel on Gastrointestinal Imaging. "Suspected small bowel obstruction." American College of Radiology 2005. 12 Oct 2008.
Intestinal Obstructions Are Treatable but Can Be Life-Threatening
By Amber J. Tresca, About.com Guide
Updated April 10, 2010
About.com Health's Disease and Condition content is reviewed by the Medical Review Board
See More About:
* intestinal blockage
* symptoms of bowel obstruction
* preventing bowel obstructions
* constipation
Sponsored Links
Adhesion treatmentSuccessful adhesion treatment /cure since 1991www.midwestsurgicalservices.com
MyRescue™Relieve constipation. Most pleasant natural bowel cleanser. Read more..www.melakastore.com
SufferingColitis Neck and backwww.neckandbackhelp.com
IBD-Crohn's Ads
Irritable BowelSymptoms of IBSBowel SymptomsBowel CancerBowel Blockage
Sponsored Links
Colon Cancer TreatmentGene Therapy, CIK-DC Immunotherapy Treating Advanced Colon CancerCancerTherapyChina.com
PRUhealth from PrudentialFind out about PRUhealth's benefits & features. Get complete info here.www.prudential.com.my
What is a Bowel Obstruction?
A bowel obstruction is when a section of the bowel (either the small or the large intestine) becomes totally or partially blocked, so that stool cannot pass through it. Bowel obstructions can happen to just about anyone, but they are a common complication ofCrohn's disease.
Types of Obstruction
Mechanical obstruction: In this type of obstruction, the stool moving through the intestines is physically blocked, much like household plumbing may be blocked. A blockage could be caused by:
* Hernia
* Scar tissue (adhesions)
* Impacted stool
* Gallstones
* Tumor
* Abnormal tissue growth
* Intussusception (a section of the bowel slides in to itself, similar to when a telescope is closed)
* Twist or kink in the intestines (volvulus)
* Ingested foreign body (swallowing a nonfood item)
Treating a Bowel Obstruction
An obstruction is a serious condition and may be treated in the hospital. In some cases, it is necessary to decompress the intestine. This is accomplished by inserting a nasogastric (NG) tube in to the stomach, which alleviates distention and vomiting. If inserting the NG tube does not help in relieving the blockage, surgery may be necessary. Surgery may also be necessary if some of the tissue in the intestine has died.
Complications
If not treated, a bowel obstruction could lead to more serious problems, such as the death of the bowel tissue. If part of the bowel dies, it could result in infection and/or gangrene. The intestine can also perforate (get a hole in it), which is a medical emergency and will require surgery.
Symptoms
An obstruction can cause the complete absence of stool or gas (obstipation), because no stool can pass through the intestine. Or it can cause diarrhea, because only liquid stool can pass beyond the point of obstruction. Other symptoms are intense pain and cramping, abdominal fullness and abdominal bloating. The symptoms of a bowel obstruction are:
* A feeling of fullness in the abdomen
* Bad breath
* Bloating (distention)
* Constipation
* Diarrhea
* Pain and cramping
* Vomiting
Diagnosis
The diagnosis of a bowel obstruction is made through both a physical exam and diagnostic tests.
Bowel sounds. The bowel normally makes some sounds, such as gurgling and clicking, which can be heard at irregular intervals by using a stethoscope. If an obstruction is present, a health care provider may hear high-pitched sounds while listening to the abdomen. If the obstruction has been present for some time, there may be no bowel sounds at all.
X-Ray (abdominal radiograph). This is normally the first test that is used to determine if there is an obstruction. A radiologist or other specialist can determine if the x-ray shows the signs of a bowel obstruction.
Barium enema. This test used to be used to determine the location of the obstruction. This method, however, is not always good for showing whether an obstruction is caused by something pressing on the bowel.
Upper GI with small bowel series. Much like the barium enema, this test used to be used to help pinpoint the obstruction, especially if it was in the upper gastrointestinal tract. This is almost never used for diagnosis anymore.
Abdominal CT scan. This is the primary test used for bowel obstruction.
Preventing Obstructions
Some causes of obstructions are not preventable, such as those where there is no mechanical reason for the obstruction. In cases where the obstruction is caused by another condition, such as a tumor or a hernia, treating the underlying problem can help prevent the development of an obstruction.
Sources:
Ros PR, Huprich JE, Bree RL, Foley WD, Gay SB, Glick SN, Heiken JP, Levine MS, Rosen MP, Shuman WP, Greene FL, Expert Panel on Gastrointestinal Imaging. "Suspected small bowel obstruction." American College of Radiology 2005. 12 Oct 2008.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
10 oktober 2010...
semua orng ska tarikh nih! tp aku xska...lam kesedihan aku, ade yg aku yg gembira...
arini ayah aku start total parenteral nutrition..hurmm.sdih lah..tp arini gak aku dapt nephew baru..yg ni ska lah...tp arini balik pnat2 dr tmpt ayah..bka fb..tgk2 pkwe lak post trase nk kawen arini..xslah pon..tp skit ati ble die ckp xde yg sudi nk ngan die..koie..law itu yg die mahukan...aku dh [nat la...slalu buat aku mcm2..ape msj yang die nk sampaikan sbnrnye?
adakah die cba nk g taw aku yg die dah xmo ngan aku..cma aku yg x pham2 dri dlu lg..aku yg wat bodoh..ptt kah aku pham skrng? di saat aku perlukan seseorng untuk aku bergantung trpkse lak aku lpaskan...ke ati berkecamuk?huhhhh!!!pening lah..member lak asik bg taw, ptus je..tp dapt ke aku laluinya sbb 5 thun da aku sbar..xkn skejap pn xleh sabar..tp ati ni kuat sgt die da tawr ati ngan aku...plezz God..i know u r there besides me.make me strong...hanye kepadamu aku berserah segalanya n Engkaulah maha adil dalam memutuskan sesuatu..
arini ayah aku start total parenteral nutrition..hurmm.sdih lah..tp arini gak aku dapt nephew baru..yg ni ska lah...tp arini balik pnat2 dr tmpt ayah..bka fb..tgk2 pkwe lak post trase nk kawen arini..xslah pon..tp skit ati ble die ckp xde yg sudi nk ngan die..koie..law itu yg die mahukan...aku dh [nat la...slalu buat aku mcm2..ape msj yang die nk sampaikan sbnrnye?
adakah die cba nk g taw aku yg die dah xmo ngan aku..cma aku yg x pham2 dri dlu lg..aku yg wat bodoh..ptt kah aku pham skrng? di saat aku perlukan seseorng untuk aku bergantung trpkse lak aku lpaskan...ke ati berkecamuk?huhhhh!!!pening lah..member lak asik bg taw, ptus je..tp dapt ke aku laluinya sbb 5 thun da aku sbar..xkn skejap pn xleh sabar..tp ati ni kuat sgt die da tawr ati ngan aku...plezz God..i know u r there besides me.make me strong...hanye kepadamu aku berserah segalanya n Engkaulah maha adil dalam memutuskan sesuatu..
Friday, October 8, 2010
hati ku nervous..xtaw nape...
hari ini..rse kpala sgt be-ol...smalm tdo awl sbb pnat sgt...lpas bsuh bju lam kul 9 lbih da tdo..then, pastu tgk fb jap tros ngantok..rumet suh kjutkan kul 10 tp aku lak yg lena...tdo punye tdo, terjaga kul 12.30 am..mse tu ati aku berkecamuk giler..ngan mslah ngan pkwe lg..tp actually bkn mslh bsr pn..hurmmm...tp aku jnis xleh yg tangguhkan mslah..mau di settlekan secpt mngkin..aku kol die n settlekan prob..aku mintak maaf...bnda ni peribadi tuk aku ceritakan sbb aku xnk sesape yg sakit ati...then, aku xdpt lelapkan mata lagi..pastu umet aku pon jaga gak, kiteorng mkn maggie...pastu aku tdo blik kul 3 pagi..then bgn 5.30 am.aku ke tempat praktikl spt biase tp aku dh nekad xmo peramah sgt ngan pak cik driver..die ska mengagungkan kaum bkn melayu n law di ajak bercerita sal agama, xllak die sokong agama kite yang benar ni..plek...arini juz dgr radio je lam pajero tu..
then, arini aktiviti kat tempat kje, potostat pamplet n lipat pamplet, staple pamplet..n arini gak tmpat kje aku ade wat jamuan raye..arini tolong potong ketupat...then sempat borak2 ngan kakak CO Besta ni..pastu tba2 die ade cte sal kje..aku ape lagi teros tnye sal kje..tuk adik aku..die kta nt bwk je adik dtg..so aku gembira la..tros kol adik n tnye die nk x...aku g taw la die..die stuju...pastu ake lepak lgi...mkn2 n on9..hati ni gemuruh je..xtaw nape..pastu akak CO pnggl aku..die suh adik aku g inject thypoid dl b4 kje..lah 1 hal lak aku nk wat..tp xpe la..aku yg beriya n gati mulut nk tnye sgt td..pstu aku ter pk mak bg x ni..aku tros kol mak...mak ckp die kat emergygency room kat HRPZ bwk ayah gi cna check..mak kata abg blik pjuk ayah gi hospital..aku gembira lam sedih...mak kata ayah mkin teruk sbb tu kna pkse gi hosptal..jantung aku berdenyut..xtaw nk ckp ape..tp, nk elak dr sedih aku tnyekan mak sal kje adik ni..mak mcm x bg..aku lak yg rsau ape nk jwb ngan kakak CO ni lak..hurmmm...tp papepun mak kata ayah ngah sakit xkan nk tnggl cam tu je..tu aku paham..pape pn tgk keadaan..aku bingung la sekarang nih..xtaw nk rse ape..bercampur baur perasaan aku..rse nk hilangkan dri je..tp mslahnye praktikal lak..
rse nk g tmpat yg sesape xleh cri n xleh cntact...tmpat xde line..huhuh..
tension hidup aku nih...tp orng yg xtaw ska push hidup aku ngan mcm2..aku xthan..tension sgt2...tp apakan daya aku ni hamba_Nya dan papepn xde ape yg dpt mnyelamatkan aku selain Nya..tp mengapakh dugaan hebat ni harus aku lalui...adakah di sini Allah mahu menguji kesabaran umatnya dan ketaatan ku?,,
"....Ya Allah, kau jauhilah aku dari sifat putus asa dan sentiase tenang dlm pkerjaan ku...Ya Allah kau ringankan lah dan putuskan lah apa yang terbaik untuk kedua ibu bapaku, sesungguh nya keputusan mu itu adalah maha adil dan Engkaulah pencipta yang agung..."
then, arini aktiviti kat tempat kje, potostat pamplet n lipat pamplet, staple pamplet..n arini gak tmpat kje aku ade wat jamuan raye..arini tolong potong ketupat...then sempat borak2 ngan kakak CO Besta ni..pastu tba2 die ade cte sal kje..aku ape lagi teros tnye sal kje..tuk adik aku..die kta nt bwk je adik dtg..so aku gembira la..tros kol adik n tnye die nk x...aku g taw la die..die stuju...pastu ake lepak lgi...mkn2 n on9..hati ni gemuruh je..xtaw nape..pastu akak CO pnggl aku..die suh adik aku g inject thypoid dl b4 kje..lah 1 hal lak aku nk wat..tp xpe la..aku yg beriya n gati mulut nk tnye sgt td..pstu aku ter pk mak bg x ni..aku tros kol mak...mak ckp die kat emergygency room kat HRPZ bwk ayah gi cna check..mak kata abg blik pjuk ayah gi hospital..aku gembira lam sedih...mak kata ayah mkin teruk sbb tu kna pkse gi hosptal..jantung aku berdenyut..xtaw nk ckp ape..tp, nk elak dr sedih aku tnyekan mak sal kje adik ni..mak mcm x bg..aku lak yg rsau ape nk jwb ngan kakak CO ni lak..hurmmm...tp papepun mak kata ayah ngah sakit xkan nk tnggl cam tu je..tu aku paham..pape pn tgk keadaan..aku bingung la sekarang nih..xtaw nk rse ape..bercampur baur perasaan aku..rse nk hilangkan dri je..tp mslahnye praktikal lak..
rse nk g tmpat yg sesape xleh cri n xleh cntact...tmpat xde line..huhuh..
tension hidup aku nih...tp orng yg xtaw ska push hidup aku ngan mcm2..aku xthan..tension sgt2...tp apakan daya aku ni hamba_Nya dan papepn xde ape yg dpt mnyelamatkan aku selain Nya..tp mengapakh dugaan hebat ni harus aku lalui...adakah di sini Allah mahu menguji kesabaran umatnya dan ketaatan ku?,,
"....Ya Allah, kau jauhilah aku dari sifat putus asa dan sentiase tenang dlm pkerjaan ku...Ya Allah kau ringankan lah dan putuskan lah apa yang terbaik untuk kedua ibu bapaku, sesungguh nya keputusan mu itu adalah maha adil dan Engkaulah pencipta yang agung..."
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
siapakah aku sebenarnye....
hati aku hiba tp bibir tersenyum indah..mampukah manusia faham siapakh diriku yang sebenarnye...walaupun rautku tenang namun dalam hati sangat la kusut masai..pada siapa yang ingin ku luahkan rasa..pada tuhanku Yang maha Esa sahaja aku mampu berkata-kata..aku bernekad takkan tertumpu kepada nafsu semata..harpanku tinggi menjulang...mementingkan akal sahaja, bertindak tidak mengikut kata dan suara hati..jiwa kosong akan ku isi kan dengan mendekati-Nya..ku mengharapkan hidayah-Nya..semoga aku hidup sebagai ank adam yang berjaya, menjadi pengikut yang pemimpin ku harapkan ke arah yang benar dan yang paling penting menjadi hamba yang taat kepada suruhan-Nya..aku cba bertenang dan menjiwai hidupku..kadang2 aku mempersoalkan kenapakah ujian ini amat berat..tp..aku tahu perlukan kesabarn je semua tu..okiee....aku akan bersabar...tpi tunjukkan lah aku ke jalan yg hak dan lurus.
-----> baru je lepas telepon kat umah...huhhh..kenapakah aku perlu buat2 gembira..? sedangkan lam ati aku sayu sangat..mengapakah aku perlu membuat lakonan spontan mcm ni...terpaksa..hidup ini aku warnai dengan bunga2 indah, tapi racun mencucuk jiwa xde yg tahu...sedih bile terkenang nasib tp xpatut mengeluh sekiranya itu yang tersurat..hanya mamou berdoa n redha...
-----> abah skait lagi ke? abah jawab " mmmm..." abah gi hospital x? abah jwab
" dah pegi tp dh balik.." aku jawab abah jgn la tipu..xboleh la buat mcm ni..abah diam je..taxpe la abah, nanti hujung mnggu ni orang balik naik bas, hari jumaat malam sabtu..nanti orang balik, kite gi hospital ek..kite check ape yang buat abah sakit sgt tu ek...abah diam je..xpe abah, rehat2 ek..tunggu orang balik...
-----> hello ma...tadi orang telopon abah.. ma: ha...ape abah ko ckp? aku jwb:xde..abah ckp die gi hospital tapi dah balik....tp msti die tipu kan? ma gelak je..xpe ma, orng nk usung abah gak ujung mnggu ni gi hospital..mne bleh cmni...nk tgk ape lg pnyakit ayah...ma ketawa lagi...ma ckp: ma dah bnayk kali suh abah ko gi hospital..smlm ma tnye lagi, cmne ni, nk gi hospital x? abah jwb tnggu sehari 2 lagi...huhhh...hurmmmmmmmmm..xtaw la..rse ketat je dada aku..ma ckp: aritu ade doctor dtg umah n bg suntikan. doktor tu kata kena gi hospital, takut effect dr operation n kanser aritu, takut makan usus... aku jawab: org pn rse gitu ma..ma ckp: ayah ko muntah n kembung perut n xtido bnyak hari dah...tp die perit gi hospital takut kna tahan lagi...hurmmm..xpe la ma, nanti kite bwk die gi...kena pakse nih...xpe ma, jgn rsau2 sgt, tenangkan pikiran tu ye..nanti kite usaha same2..
suare aku ckp ngan ma mcm ceria n tenang je tp ati aku menangis sebenarnya...hurmmm...tp aku kena jd sekuat hajar dan seteguh ibrahim jika mahukan ma n family ku kuat...aku berdoa moga abah diringankan kesakitan ni...sian abah..
-----> baru je lepas telepon kat umah...huhhh..kenapakah aku perlu buat2 gembira..? sedangkan lam ati aku sayu sangat..mengapakah aku perlu membuat lakonan spontan mcm ni...terpaksa..hidup ini aku warnai dengan bunga2 indah, tapi racun mencucuk jiwa xde yg tahu...sedih bile terkenang nasib tp xpatut mengeluh sekiranya itu yang tersurat..hanya mamou berdoa n redha...
-----> abah skait lagi ke? abah jawab " mmmm..." abah gi hospital x? abah jwab
" dah pegi tp dh balik.." aku jawab abah jgn la tipu..xboleh la buat mcm ni..abah diam je..taxpe la abah, nanti hujung mnggu ni orang balik naik bas, hari jumaat malam sabtu..nanti orang balik, kite gi hospital ek..kite check ape yang buat abah sakit sgt tu ek...abah diam je..xpe abah, rehat2 ek..tunggu orang balik...
-----> hello ma...tadi orang telopon abah.. ma: ha...ape abah ko ckp? aku jwb:xde..abah ckp die gi hospital tapi dah balik....tp msti die tipu kan? ma gelak je..xpe ma, orng nk usung abah gak ujung mnggu ni gi hospital..mne bleh cmni...nk tgk ape lg pnyakit ayah...ma ketawa lagi...ma ckp: ma dah bnayk kali suh abah ko gi hospital..smlm ma tnye lagi, cmne ni, nk gi hospital x? abah jwb tnggu sehari 2 lagi...huhhh...hurmmmmmmmmm..xtaw la..rse ketat je dada aku..ma ckp: aritu ade doctor dtg umah n bg suntikan. doktor tu kata kena gi hospital, takut effect dr operation n kanser aritu, takut makan usus... aku jawab: org pn rse gitu ma..ma ckp: ayah ko muntah n kembung perut n xtido bnyak hari dah...tp die perit gi hospital takut kna tahan lagi...hurmmm..xpe la ma, nanti kite bwk die gi...kena pakse nih...xpe ma, jgn rsau2 sgt, tenangkan pikiran tu ye..nanti kite usaha same2..
suare aku ckp ngan ma mcm ceria n tenang je tp ati aku menangis sebenarnya...hurmmm...tp aku kena jd sekuat hajar dan seteguh ibrahim jika mahukan ma n family ku kuat...aku berdoa moga abah diringankan kesakitan ni...sian abah..
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
sedih + gelisah + mcm2 aku rse..
cmne x rsau..ayah sakit lgi...aku xdapat lak nk blik jenguk ayah sbb prktikal..
sian abah aku..hbat sgt dugaan yg Allah berikn untuk die..aku kat cni hnye mempu doa je spy di ringankan kesakitan abah..aku sayang abah aku lebih dr segala-galanya..
tp abah mmg degil..xmo g hospital lak tu..xtaw nk ckp pe da...abah xnk bbn kn owang lain..xnk bbn kn mak sbnrnye..tp tindakan abah lg bebankan psikologi kami semua..risau..sedih..tringat slalu kat umah..lg pn aku xthan prktikal bile kna marah kat supervisor..prnah x korng pk di sebalik kehidupan seseorng itu ap kehidupan die sblik nye???..perit la..walaupan bibir aku sentiasa ukirkan senyuman tp lam hati sape yg taw..sedih n terhujah..nmpk je gmbira..tp lam hati cmpur baur..
sejak abah aku sakit, perasaan aku bnyk tergnggu..pelajaran aku gak x kurng terganggu gak..pada sape mau ku luahkan..hanye Allah tempat aku mengadu..mnusia x kn pham perasaan mnusia lain..dekatkan dri padanye adlah strategi hidup aku terbaik..lam diam hati ku menangis...
sian abah aku..hbat sgt dugaan yg Allah berikn untuk die..aku kat cni hnye mempu doa je spy di ringankan kesakitan abah..aku sayang abah aku lebih dr segala-galanya..
tp abah mmg degil..xmo g hospital lak tu..xtaw nk ckp pe da...abah xnk bbn kn owang lain..xnk bbn kn mak sbnrnye..tp tindakan abah lg bebankan psikologi kami semua..risau..sedih..tringat slalu kat umah..lg pn aku xthan prktikal bile kna marah kat supervisor..prnah x korng pk di sebalik kehidupan seseorng itu ap kehidupan die sblik nye???..perit la..walaupan bibir aku sentiasa ukirkan senyuman tp lam hati sape yg taw..sedih n terhujah..nmpk je gmbira..tp lam hati cmpur baur..
sejak abah aku sakit, perasaan aku bnyk tergnggu..pelajaran aku gak x kurng terganggu gak..pada sape mau ku luahkan..hanye Allah tempat aku mengadu..mnusia x kn pham perasaan mnusia lain..dekatkan dri padanye adlah strategi hidup aku terbaik..lam diam hati ku menangis...
Bariatrik surgery...
arini belajaq sal bariatrik surgery..huhuhu..
kat library skrng nih..nt info later aku edit..hohoho
kat library skrng nih..nt info later aku edit..hohoho
Monday, October 4, 2010
hari ini!!!
hari ini aku asik je termenung...may be bnyk sgt pk..ye la..arini aku kna mrh lg kat supervisor..dat one mmg slah aku...x ingat formula lah n trtnggl growth chart...tp aku xpuas ati kna marah sal SGA..die spttnye briefing ngan detail sal ni..nape trburu2 nk mrh..aku plek la..PMS kot..hurmmm..gram gler...dh la tba2 dpt sms dr kakak kta ayh sakit tenat..xtahan tekanan perasaan aku ni...huhh...skit..aku nangis sorng2 dpan komputer kat wad td...nurse tu tgk je kat aku..peduli ape..sdey lah...hari2 yg di lalui pnuh stress...smpai bile..nk je aku quit dr blajar..tp aku pk lak pasal parent aku anta blajar ni..stree la...hurmmm..stress sgt2..okie..mlm ni aku nk study kaw2 sal paeds...takut kna mrh lg..cpt la abes...xtahan!
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